Saturday, June 26, 2010

Letting Go

I have a very difficult time letting go. This past month I have spent a great deal of time reflecting and letting go. I am fiercely loyal to my friends and I also become very attached to material things – why I’m not sure. Some things I do understand - like my mother’s fabric stash. That is one of the things I managed to go through this past month. Although it was very difficult for me to let her wonderful fabrics go, I know that I would not open the boxes and use the yardage inside. I sent 14 boxes out into the world – some I know went to a woman’s shelter so they could learn to sew, some to crafters and some to others that have the need to collect.

Another letting go was a friendship that was not what I thought it was. After being let down on numerous occasions this past year I realized that this was not a friend as I would define a friend. Perhaps the other party’s definition is different than mine but I have to live with me! After giving and giving then being left out in the cold I realized that it was time to let go. I need to move on. This has possibly been one of the hardest things for me to understand and I still tear up when I think about it. I wanted to believe the best in this relationship but I realize now that it was a one way street.

The last major hurdle for me this past month is giving up the old and accepting the new. We are closing down a water garden that was 18’ across and 24’ long. It was full of life –wonderful water lilies, Koi, Goldfish, Turtles, and of course snakes. It attracted many birds and small animals to its banks. This was the site of our wedding – lots of sentimental attachment to the area. I know that it is for the best that we taken it down but I also know that it is difficult to see something so beautiful be destroyed!

I know that in order to move forward you have to let go – it is just hard to do that.


  1. Life isn't always easy is it..nor having or maintaining friendships. Sometimes you have to just let go. Things happen, people change..good luck!

  2. Hugs from me, too. I've had to do an enormous amount of letting go in this past year, as well. It's never easy. Try to be gentle with yourself!

  3. Letting go IS hard for us, but I've learned that most of all don't let go of your happiness just because you're letting go of something else, no matter what that may be. You must bounce back quickly (which you have shown you are strong) by realizing that letting go is change, and maybe it just opens the door to something even better. Sometimes you have to do what is right and good for you. We all learn from change. Think positive about these changes you are making, and don't lose your sense of wonder, your sense of self, and your sense of humor.
    Hugs to you .............

  4. I have had an astounding amount of letting go in the past few years & here what I have learned: what causes pain is the entwinement of what is in my heart, "what that means to me" & all of the memories, & that somehow we transplant that feeling onto the physical symbol, or the interaction with the person here in 3-D Land.
    But I can have all of that alive in me without any symbol of a physical thing or hearing a person's real voice.
    Once I really got that, & started abiding in that space, "letting go" got exponentially easier.
    Blessings to you during this time of transition.

  5. Laura, I can truly say I understand what you are going through. The operative word here is through. You will move to a place of greater joy. Peace, patience, and blessings to you.

  6. Ah Laura. My heart is with you. I am so happy to have seen the water garden in its glory, too. But I also know the time and attention it took! Its really also true that to make time for the new energy, new ideas, new creativity, you gotta make room. Blessings.